bREAK

So I'm taking another break from Facebook so I can focus on writing and getting inspiration to write about different subjects.

Missing Home

We have been living in Nevada for almost 2 months and things have not gotten any better, we had an appointment for counseling today and he bailed on me again, then would not answer me and kept silent the whole time. I need him to take this seriously but if he doesn't go to counseling with me sometime this week, I am getting a flight back to kc and taking my son with me until he decides he wants to cooperate.

Happy

I am finally on my way to being happy, things are getting better slowly but surely, and now we have an opportunity to move to Nevada in a really nice house for a cheaper price than what we paid here. I will be so close to Los Angeles, I can drive in 3 hours, or fly in 30 minutes. I will finally be able to concentrate and focus on my music career, I've always felt that I was not meant to live in Kansas City all my life, I know there is something greater out there for me, living in Nevada will give me the chance to perform again and make money singing again. Also I can go to L.a. every other week and go to Brian's studio and work on my craft on becoming a songwriter.
The only thing is I will have to find another church and I hope that I find one as good as Antioch's.

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Life changing things

Yesterday I went to see a nutritionist, and now I have to write down every single thing I eat and drink and even when I go to the bathroom. Today I got to work out with the Wii Fit for about 35 minutes, this Friday I am going to get a 90 minute massage, down at the plaza then Sheda and I are going to breakfast, I feel that things have gotten better with my mom and I, so thats good. I didn't get to go to practice on Tuesday, because I had alot of work to do.

Craziness

So some things happened over the weekend that were not good, I am trying to get Carlos some mental help, I am also seeing a nutritionist because bruises have been appearing on my body from malnutrition.

11th day of fast and change

Well I find it amazing how God can change something bad in one night, if you just ask him and surrender to his will, always ask for forgiveness and guidance, and he will guide you. Though things are not 100 percent better, they are at least calm and some things are understood. I was so happy that he came to Worship and Prayer service for the first time tonight!! Next step is joining a life group and growing as a married couple, Also we have to really start the love dare, and really concentrate and take it seriously I believe tha t we will see the change that we both always wanted, like when we first met and were madly in love. Day 11 is great, God is good all the time.